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Apocalypse Girl
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Apocalypse Girl

Posted on December 26th, 2017

This one began with a morning run in the snow on Christmas weekend. It was cold, gray and quiet; it felt like no one else was left in the world–like I was a character from a post-apocalyptic novel. So after I got home, I took that idea and, well, kept running with it.

I didn’t really know what this was about until after I started working on it. For me, this one is about loneliness. It might mean something different to others.

Weapon Test: Scythe

Posted on October 8th, 2017

This is just some test footage of a new weapon I’ve added to Homicidal Jenny. I’m thinking of making it bounce off solid objects instead of being destroyed by them.

Erase Me

Posted on August 30th, 2017

(Side note: When I played this one for a bit after months of leaving it alone, my first thought was “Holy crap, this is like playing a suicide note. And I’m the one who wrote it!” So, uh, 1)I guess it expresses how I was feeling around that time? and 2)I’m very, very glad my life has improved since then.)

(Gameplay Hint: If you can’t seem to move fast enough to get through a certain area, hold down the DASH button while you run. It’s Shift on the keyboard and X on a controller.)

The very first game I created was a Twine game called The Choice which deals with suicidal feelings. It was inspired partly by another game–a wonderful game–called Today I Die. I wanted the game to be helpful for sorting through those kinds of feelings, and I guess it works on some level, but it isn’t anything I would create now.

I never, ever thought I’d follow up on that game. But in a way, I have. Erase Me is actually a bit darker and in a way, more honest. The Choice is all about a voice that’s begging you to live. Not so much a game as an expression of feeling, this one is… less so.

But just because it’s dark doesn’t mean it’s hopeless. And there’s a slight change I’ll return to this one as a full-fledged horror game.

Initial completion time: About 5-15 minutes.


Posted on August 22nd, 2017

I created this in response to something I’ve had trouble with for a long time: setting out to work on a personal project or deal with some issue, but being too scared/anxious/generally paralyzed to actually do it. I’m guessing I’m not alone.

This little Twine exercise deals with some of the feelings I’ve had surrounding that. As a hint for playing it, things aren’t as hopeless as they look. Sometimes, doing what doesn’t work eventually pushes you to try something that does.

Homicidal Jenny: Video – Graphics and Gameplay

Posted on July 16th, 2017

I’ve been working hard on my latest project, and it’s starting to look like a game! Yay! Here’s a look at stage 1-1 as it currently stands. Music (which isn’t part of the game) by Kevin MacLeod at Incompetech.

VERY First Look: Homicidal Jenny

Posted on June 7th, 2017

After finally overhauling the code for this thing to turn it into something sensible and making some feature tweaks, I figured I might as well show people what I’ve been working on. It’s going to be a while before the game is ready, but this should give you some idea of how it’ll play. (And while the placeholder graphics do look kind of neat, no, they’re not staying. ;p) Enjoy!

Eh, Might As Well. (Some concept art)

Posted on May 18th, 2017

Hi, Everyone! I’m still dealing with some life stuff and working on some non-game projects, but I’m kinda getting my mojo back and I do have a big project underway that IS going to happen — eventually. :p (Somewhat helpfully, I’ve at least decided that dealing with Unity isn’t worth the effort yet for what I want to do. Like the possibilities; loathe the interface.) So I might as well post some concept art I’ve been holding on to. If you follow my Twitter, you might’ve seen it already. If not, this is new.

I’m planning to update this artwork later, but it’ll do for now. Others will be coming over the next few weeks. Still not planning to name the game until it’s somewhat playable. ;p

Red (Version 1)
Red (Version 1)

I’m still here. Just been stuck.

Posted on April 2nd, 2017

Hi, everyone! I am still here. I’ve just been sorting through some personal stuff–and dealing with my worst, most persistent problem when it comes to getting things done. That problem is thinking way too much about everything that could go wrong or already is and what if it’s hopeless/unfixable and everyone just laughs at me and getting so overwhelmed by it all that I’m paralyzed with fear.

I do have a game in progress. I got it to the point of having a complete (and fairly complicated) engine programmed in Game Maker plus all the player sprites and the basics of some playable levels. The problem is the more I learned, the more obvious it was that the earlier code I wrote is a godawful mess, and every fix I built on that just added to the mess. If I’d known what I was doing (or even that most of the stuff I learned along the way was possible) and sorted it all out in advance, I would have a much easier time making modifications or even just remembering where I left the function that does whatever thing. That’s bothering me a lot. But there’s just so MUCH of it it’s hard to think of tearing it down and starting over, even though I know that’s what I really want to do.

I also got caught up in “Did I really make the right choice?” Game maker will work well for this and probably for just about anything else I want to do… but I keep worrying that I’m wasting my time and should’ve gone with Unity even though it’s somewhat harder to work with and I don’t like the interface. So, being me, that weird little fear has done a lot to keep me from working.

Another thing I worry about might be more justified: What if there’s more to this game–something important–that I’ve overlooked? What if I can add something to its fundamentals that would make it better? And perhaps less justified (or at least more paranoid), what if I should be doing something else entirely? What if I just have no business making this kind of game and it’s doomed to be awful? But that’s all part and parcel with my being terrified I really have no talent and my work won’t ever, ever be good enough by some unknown standard I’m not even sure is mine. Which leads back back to fearing failure so much I can’t even get started again.

I know how ridiculous all this sounds and I’m working on it. Writing it out seems to help, and who knows? Maybe someone having similar problems will read it and know they’re not alone. In the meantime, though, I’ve got character sprites and written code (at least some of which I can reuse), a script for the game, and new plans-in-progress for some gameplay tweaks. I’m also sorting out my coding needs in advance this time, which is a lot easier when you sort of know what you CAN do. And maybe in a month or two, I’ll have something I feel like showing.

Thanks for your patience,

Signed, The Pixie.

New Game: She Who Fights Monsters – Choice Edition

Posted on November 8th, 2016

Note: This game donationware. While you can get, play it and keep it for free, donations are always welcome.

Well, it’s finally done: my new and improved version of She Who Fights Monsters. Since a picture is worth a thousand words, here’s a video:

If you’ve played the original and you’re wondering how this differs, here’s a quick rundown:

  • Improved graphics, especially in the “Jenny’s Imagination” areas
  • New music has been added
  • Story has been expanded
  • New Game Plus
  • Free Day Mode (in New Game Plus) where Jenny gets to do what she wants for as long as the player wants
  • Six new endings
  • Probably some stuff I forgot


She Who Fights Monsters: Choice Edition

Posted on November 8th, 2016

Note: This game is donationware. If you enjoy it, please tell your friends and feel free to send something my way. šŸ™‚

Note 2: If you’re curious, THE ORIGINAL VERSION IS STILL AVAILABLE. You can get it here.

Once upon a time, there was a sweet little girl with a big imagination. Her name was Jennifer (Jenny for short), and her world was full of adventure. A closet became a sanctuary. A basement became a secret passage to the Land of Elves. And her home became a nightmare world with no warning, rhyme or reason beyond the unpredictable winds of her father’s drunken rage.

Help little Jenny survive seven days with her alcoholic father. From there, via New Game Plus, walk the path of Love, Indifference or Hate to decide who she becomes.

This game is a big improvement over the original version. Highlights and changes include:

  • Six new endings; brand new ending art
  • New Game Plus
  • A story to suit your mood: optimistic, pessimistic or destructively nihilistic depending on which path you choose
  • The introduction of Free Day Mode, which gives little Jennifer run of the house without parental terror (New Game Plus only)
  • New secret boss





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